glad i said goodbye

looking back...i am glad i said goodbye
glad i had the strenght to say goodbye and not look back
glad for the that day when i said.....no....cannot do this anymore. cos this is not me....this is not who i want to be...this is not where i want to call my home....i need to leave now. I think as we grow older we learn to become more secure on ourselves. More secure in our decisions, where ever it may take us. More certain of what we need to do to get there; what we need to give up and what we need to pick up. I cannot say i am fully certain of who i am, what i should be or where i need to be. But i know i am certain that my decisions have led me to a happy place. A place free of hate, malice, hypocricy, gossip....a place free of dogma. A wise man once said....never fall victim to dogma....never fall victim of being the product of someones else's thinking....and this is what i strive for everyday...to be in a place of my own....a cocoon filled with thoughts invented by tj and no one else....this is where i want to be.

So looking back....i am glad i said goodbye. Sometimes we are forced to say goodbye...we are made to come to this decision because of external forces out of our control.....but those decisions will lead us somewhere....i only pray and hope that my decisions lead me to a happy and content place.....but for now i am glad i said goodbye......merry christmas lovies